Why not? As I was reading and doing some bible study the Lord asked me this question. I don't know if it's how I was raised, the environment I grew up in, or just my own insecurity, but it's always been in my head to second guess my worth. If God is going to use anyone...why not me?
My desire is to be what God has called me to be. I am not for sure right now what it is, but little by little He keeps revealing himself to me and the plan that He has for my life. Sometimes it takes me stopping long enough to listen to what He is trying to tell me. My life gets so busy at times with the kids that my brain capacity is filled with Mom...Mom...Mom...Mom, that I miss the voice of God, or it sounds like my kid's voice...so I ignore it.
Here I am with my fears, my insecurities, my doubts, and all that stuff and I am going forth in God. Mistakes made, hang ups formed, bad habits, frustration and confusion, but I'm here. I feel like Celie from The Color Purple..."I'm poor, black, I might even be ugly, but dear God, I'm here. I'm here." Yeah the latter portion of that quote, not so much the beginning. I'm here!
So Lord if you want to use someone here I am use me. Why not!
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